One Year In

 What do I need to do to change my life?

Get my affairs in order: will/trust, deal with Oak Street, give Elib notice, review finances,  make a budget

Make a contract with Sequoia. Let go of the illusion that I can control him. Let go of him. 

Let go of my fear.

Nail down what I can't let go of: the land, my home, my life here. Make sure it will be here when I come back

Make a plan. Where am I going,  how will I get there, where will I stay, what will I do while I'm there. Make a budget for a 1 year odyssey. 

What brings me joy? Find it, follow it.

Button up my health routine. 

Fix my teeth so I can smile again 

Speak truth and accept the fallout.

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